life...

so...life has been pretty good lately. Very confusing though. I've made and lost friends. Relationships have died and suddenly been reborn. It's all extremely baffling to me, but I'll just let it go.

I've changed recently. I have more of a disregard for the rules. I don't know why, it's just something about me now. I don't care if I'm late or if something's illegal. I guess it's just part of being a teen? oh well...it's fun anyway, until I get caught and have to explain to my mom.

So, I really want this boy. REALLY bad. he's so cute and so sweet. And he knows me....I mean, really knows me. Who I really am. I don't even know that. And.....I'm starting to think that I love him. The only problem is that we tried something before. He liked me, I liked him. But he didn't want a gf then, so I got frustrated with him for not telling me sooner. We got into a fight. And then it was awkward to be around one another for a long time, but now....we're together always. I can't help but be around him. I'm hoping that maybe he changed his mind, maybe he does want someone, maybe he wants me, but this is all just my dream. I can only hope and just keep trying to keep his attention on me. I have so many people that want us to be together though. I have no real competition because my friends will beat some ass if someone interferes...lol. I love that. I love my friends....especially all the new ones. They're soo fun!!

but yeah, i wrote more than I meant to, this being my first blog and all. So, hello everyone. Love you all. Everyone deserves to be loved.